Traumatized

After that dreadful period of time.
I survived and got over it.
Seriously thank God that it's over.
But still, there are still the little times
that i feel like i'm gonna go through that
again and i'm really reeeelly frightened,
cause that period was really torturing.

I think i'm traumatized and that's why i'm
feeling this way. Honestly this year was a rough
one. I've leanrt alot of things, the hard way.
But nevermind, i'm looking forward to a new and
hopefully happier year (:

Never in your hands, change.

Sigh.
I'm really upset today over the pastor
mark thing. Cause today is his last day
in BC :( It's sooo sad. Although i'm not really
that close to him. But i'm still gonna miss him.
Also, cause he is leaving and the new timing and
all. Some people like aralin, jolene and jael have a
little problem with it. And I don't. So if they change
church or something. I seriously don't know what to do )):
I know changes like this are from God, and some
good will come out of it but, yeah.
:(
Anyways, jolene didn't come church again today! ):
Stupid girl, always not feeling well on sundays. Tsk.
After oikos, went to isushi for lunch with gwen, ara,
smallval and steph. And went back to church later.

HEY!
Was suppose to have mm today
but then when we went church.
Shannn said we can't play cause
the room next door they are having
some sermon thingie. So yeah. So me
and ara stayed in chucrch in the jss room
and took pictures(: They're in facebook
cause i can't post them here. Later
we had to go out cause the tuition centre kids
were coming in so we went into a room
with a few others who were painting.
Went home at 4.30?

Have usher duty tomorrow. Pffttttt.

When i say jump, you say how high

HI!
HI!
HI!
:D

-Tomorrow is saturday! MM! (:
-Monday is a halfway!
-No school on tuesday!

But, monday we have to stay back for
project work presentation. Damn.
Project work is like a really useless lesson.
Like seriously, we have projects for other
subjects also what? Like what kind of subject
is project work? Tsk. Anyway.

Today was super duper awesome&fun&awesome (:
After school, mitch, vick, maxine, zandra, meb and me went to
airport to do our drama project. Intended to go ECP at first,
but then decided on airport instead. In the lift on the way up,
some tampines sec people asked us if we knew of this place and
showed us a picture of it, cause they were playing some activity.
And then we saw many tampines sec peeps running around.
Then we were like, omg so cool! Let's play ourselves too kay!
So decided that we quickly finish the first part and play hide and seek
catching! (: We went to a QUITE isolated place to do our work. We saw
this four siblings, and this little boy name joseph? Damn cute!:D Okay,
we completed the first part, the poem part. And then! Played! (:
There were three guys who kept staring at us, and zandra thought
she knew them but not sure. And when i walked past them, i heard them
saying hi. But i was like shocked and then just continue walking. Haha.
Vick and max were the seekers first, and they caught me and meb easily.
LOL. And next was us, and we took a long time to catch them! Gr.
Oh and then finally we caught mitch and vick cause they went to hide
in a handicap toilet and then they came out and we caught them. Haha.
Oh, on the escalator up, the guys were going down, and one smiled at us O:

Okay, here's the FUN PART! ((: We went to practice once more,
and then we walked past this bouncey bouncey thingie. Max and zandra
wanted to go and play. Mitch and vick didn't wanna. Then okay, meb went too.
So i followed them. AND GUESS WHAT! It was FREAKING SUPER DUPER DAMN FUN!
We jumped around like crazy people and laughed like mad. The way
we fall were REALLY REALLY SILLY! It was quite foolish but WE HAD
ALOT OF FUN! Then mitch and vick joined us! HAHA :D :D Was really funny.
I laughed til my stomach pain! DAMN FUN!!! ((((: Then we played catching,
and then kept pushing each other down! HAHA. The way we fall really damn
retarded! If we fall like that in public on the ground right, it's sure
gonna look super retarded! Haha! & will hurt alot too. Then later
mitch had to go so we went. Max wanted to go toilet so we went seperate ways
from mitch, vick and meb (: Had ALOT OF FUN TODAYYYY. HAHAHAH.

Oh, and the you belong with me song by taylor swift.
There is one part that says, she's cheer captain and.
but zandra always hears it as, she is capulet.
The romeo and juliet thingie. So here's our version of it (:

Zandra: She wears high heels,
Me: I wears sneakers.
Zandra: She is capulet.
Me: And i am montague.

HAHA :D Had alot of fun today luhhhhhhhhhhhh ((:

Xo!

Looks like a solo tonight

I looked around.

And i felt..........
&
I long for.
I yearn for.
I need.

Look inside your tiny mind

Dang!

Blogger finally has the icons thinig
but everytime i click to upload photos,
it'll just go error on page. Pfffft. Damn
annoying.

Anyway, you know what else is annoying.
MY SISTER! Like, what the hell. I don't even
know why in the world i have a sister like her??
She such an idiot like seriously. She gets angry and
practically NOTHING! Like really NOTHING.
And she also gets angry over tiny small matters.
And like, suddenly one moment she happy and the
next, her face turn blacker then usual. Like, what
the hell. And sometimes she'll just say to my brother,
OH YOU ASSHOLE. OH YOU THIS BLAH. Over some
stupid matter. Veryyyyyy annoyinggg.

Fuck you, fuck you very very much.
Cause your words don't translate,
and it's getting quite late,
so please don't stay in touch.

-Lily Allen

Blow the candles out

My sister never fails to pissed me off and spoil
my mood. Pfft. Can't stand it. She is super, SUPER
annoying.

I saw adrian in the bus again today. During chinese
today we wanted to continue watching the nobody's child.
but jiang said that it's unfit for us and all. Like wth?
So we ended up watching i not stupid two, again. I mean,
i not stupid is quite nice, but i'd rather watch others.

Later during assembly, we went to the hall and did some
aces day dance thing. Quite cool. After school, walked to the bus
stopo with mitch and brenda and me and mitch were caught in
the rain, while brenda happily walking with her umbrella. Haha.
Took 222 with mitch, and saw sue ying! (:

The word is out, this town can hardly breathe.

HIIIII (:

Today
during PE, we played basketball. It wasn't fun at first,
but later when we played full court, it was fun! :D
Later during lit, vick dared nick to do something
for 7 bucks. It had something to do with a tissue
paper wrapper which have been left in school for days,
weeks or mayben even months & have been in contact with shoes,
and have been in the dustbin and picked up. Yeah.
& Nicole did it! Haha! And also something with school's
toilet paper too (: Hah! Took a video of it but not gonna
post it here. Even if i want to, i can't cause blogger
is being a pain. Gah.

During chinese we watched this movie called nobody's child.
Some chinese movie. And joshua ang acted insde. Haha.
He is so good looking luh (((: Anyway, damn funny.

Account= ah kow (dog)
Abovee= ah bu(mother)
Admire= ah mai ya
Aloud= ah liu

HAHA.
After school had dance. Didn't really felt like going but have to,
must be commited right! :D Shit la, i didn't buy the CCA photo :(
It's nice! But i didn't get to see it, so i didn't buy it D: Aw!
I was damn high in dance and was irritating navleen. HAHA :D
After dance, i saw mitch, vick, zandra, yingxiu and hazel with eunice.
So i walked to the bus top with them :D Then yingxiu and zandra were
having this water fight, which suddenly involved everyone! Haha.
We went to the bubbletea shop to get ice from the uncle. He gave us,so nice (:
And then put on vick. Haha. And my shirt and skirt and hair kena
a little. Oh! Saw mouktita at the bubbletea shop! (: Took 222 with mitch.
In the busm she was trying to open her jelly stick thingie & she failed.
So she gave up, but there is a hole and we went to squart it everywhere.
Hahaha.

Tomorrow is thursday, pfffffft! :(

Through it all, just stand up

Hey peepo (:

The bottom post is by nicole.
Who actually intended to write nicole is loved by lyvia.
But look at how pathetically she failed. Sigh (:
Look what it became, nicole love lyv. Haha! :D
Cause when i was typing things.
NICOLE went to anyhow type on my keyboard.
And so now i'm doing it back to her (:
Hah! Loser nick! :D

Anyway, we got back science and maths paper today.
And i wasn't at all happy with my results :(
I failed maths, and my science i only got 21/40.
I did my science paper stupidly. Like seriously. Pfft :(
Anyway, expected to do not so greatly though.
So now in total, i failed three subjects, geog, maths and chinese :(
How to take amaths next year! Anyway.
So we had english enrichment after schoool today.
And it was the last lesson. So we each had a certificate
of participation. Went to tampines KFC with nick and pooj.
Took 31 back with nick. Haha! Was so funny in the bus!
Did many many stupid things in the bus and kept on laughing
like crazy people. Hah!
:D

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Oh.

Well.

Why do all good things come to an end.

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii (:

Today

Went school with nick (: Went to buy kinderjoy again! I'm like addicted to kinderjoy nowadays. Hoo. Anywayszx, i hate project work, like seriously, it's a waste of time. Every monday during project work period, me and my group will just sit there and get bored. Pfft. Drama today was damn cool! :D Oh and, i failed geog! )): Shit! I failed chinese already and now another one ): Damn. What if i fail maths too?! Anywayszx, sorry nick and pooj. Heehee. That i can't follow ya'll to meet ZZZZZZZZZZZ. Haha! I would like to go, but i am G-R-O-U-N-D-E-D :( Ah well. My dad gave me 10bucks extra to make me happier cause i'm grounded. Hahaha. My post are getting boring-er and boring-er by the minute, cause i can't post pictures! Gah annoying.





Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?

It's like we all have better days

Oh noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

:(

Then we make our getaway.

Oh no oh no.

-Cause of the new youth structure.
-Alot of people maybe changing church i guess.
-Or are thinking of changing church.
-Okay maybe not ALOT.
-But still :(
-It's like, we'll spend more time in church,
-Then our parents not happy how.

Pfffffft. This is dumb.

Anyway, I was grounded. So i didn't go oikos today. Sad, but anyway, aralin and jolene didn't come so yeah. & I'm damn bored. Oh! And i just found out something! Omg! Haha.

When you see my face, hope it gives you hell.

What the hell.

Why can't blogger just work ): Damn. Another boring pictureless post.
Bear with it please! (: Anywayszxzx.

Today is friday! My favourite day of the week, cause there is no school tomorrow ((: Teehee. My sister is SUPER ANNOYING. I've been feeling sleep
deprived these days, and so i was sleeping soundly yesterday night. My sister
didn't have school today so she slept later, and know what? She freaking woke me up in the freaking middle of the night. Damn her! PLUS IT'S NOT THE FIRST TIME. LIKE WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU IDIOT. YOU NO SCHOOL BUT I HAVE RIGHT. DAMN IRRITATING OKAY fucktard. Waa super mad! Okay, moving on...

So today after school, me pearlyn, nicole, edna and neelam went to T3 to film our english project thing which is due on monday. We went to find macs as we wasn't sure where it was. In the lift, two old man came into the lift so we asked them. Then one uncle said, errr macdonalds ah. Then he looked at the lift button beside there which said foodcourt, and was like, oh there foodcourt. Then nick was like,huh no, foodcourt is foodcourt, not macs. Then the uncle was like, huh oh! Hahaha. So funny. Later we went out the lift and was laughing and the uncle gave a funny soudning, cute laugh. Hahaha (: Okay. Had macs and filmed somewhere near macs cause some people didn't wanna go to the MRt there to do it. After filmimg a few scenes, we went over to the MRt to film, but before that they asked the officer, and the officer said have to call the other train people, so i talked to them and explained but they say we cannot do it today, have to do after we email them a request. So like what the hell. It is due on monday, how we gonna finish in time right. So we went over to tampines to do it cause someone was there. Hahaha. Filmed at the rooftop at tampines1, so done! (: Took 31 with nick (:

&&, I wanna go shopping!

His eyes filled up with tears.

Sigh. Blogger doesn't have the icons for pictures again. Ah annoying. Forget it.
Anyway.

Yesterday 19aug
-Had science paper.
-It was kinda easy but i didn't really know how to do some.
-And one question which was so damn easy, i went to put the wrong answer when i knew which is the right one.
-Damn! How dumb can i get.
-I borrowed stapler from maxine.
-MsTan went to record down our names and stuffs also cause we talked abit.
-What the hell.
-Nevermind, common test only.
-Got back chinese papers. So fast.
-I failed. Kinda expected but still,
-My first time failing chinese.
-15/50 (:
-Was super slack the whole day (:

Haha.

Today
-Maths paper, last common test paper ((:
-I kinda counted and I think i'll get 20/32 ):
-Stayed back in school for lit project shit thing.
-Straight away after that, like at 2something, i went home.
-So freaking early! Not very use to it.

Last day of school for the week tomorrow! Yippees :D

On my radar, on my radar

Feeling so sleepy nowadays -___-

Anyway, today i was in the bus reading my geog book cause geog paper was today. Then someone came and sat beside me. I didn't care, but i felt the person's intensifying stare then i looked up and guess who. Adrian! Haha. Disturb me while i was studying. Tsktsk. Haha! Anyway, geog paper was quite easy but i wasn't sure of the first and last question. Damn! We had home econs and we made sheperds pie! Me and neelam were the last to finish. Neelam does things really slowly okay. I'm not pushing the blame on her, but really! Haha. Lunched at eighteen chefs with maxine and nicole. Nowadays i don't know why when during meal times, like recess or lunch time, i don't feel like eating. Yesterday also. Hm wonder why. But nevermind. Great way to lose weight :D Later max left, nick and me took 38 to bedok inter. Haha! In the bus very funnaye (: Yay! Wednesday tomorrow! (: Can wake up later! Woohoo.

You open my eyes and you made me believe

Uh, should have seen this coming, should have known, and now it ends.

Common test starts today. And i only found out yesterday that history paper is today too. But i didn't have my book at home with me so can't really study. I didn't know how to do my chinese paper, anyhow do, and some asked sutini. Heh heh. History i think i wrote crap, like irrevalant to the question. Oh no D:

/Edit.
Ohyeah! Church yesterday was awesome! :D Jon talked about the youths being divided and all, which to me, is so true. And cause now there are some changes here and there, so we have to be more divided and run together as one! (: So, then if anyone needs to reconcile or clear things up with anyone, then you just go up to that person and ask if you can wash their feet. Yup so like people washed feet for others. I felt like washing for pastor mark cause he is leaving and all. I have nothing to reconcile about with him, just felt like. Haha. I didn't wash anyone's feet cause i had nothing to reconcile with anyone, neither did anyone wash mine. Service ended later, at 2pm. There said no oikos, but we want! (: So our oikos had (: Went bedok macs for lunch with ara, jolene, steph, nic, and tim. And went back to church to study, ara taught me maths (:

Tell me how i'm suppose to breathe with no air

Blogger is screwed.

Anyway,
damn. I'm feeling so umcomfortable, cause of my block nose. It's like blocked like don't know what until i'm feeling super umcomfortable breathing through my mouth. Gah! Dammit. And it's like one of the symptoms of H1N1. Maybe i'm gonna get it..... Ahh, damn annoying my nose!

you came along and you changed everything

Booohooo.

I didn't go school again today D: Cause my temperature was still kinda high in the morning. So didn't go school since every friday they take temperature and if my temperature is more then 37.5 degrees they'll send me home. So yeah ): So sad, i miss my friends and i missed out on lessons too. Sigh. I went to meet nick and pooj at bedok macs at around 2 something. Cynthia was there also (: So nick passed me my homework and stuffs, and i'm missing out on alot for maths! And it's maths! Like my worst subject. Oh no D: Anyway, pooj and cynthia went home shortly after and max came. Later they did something really pissing. And that nicole ah, really. WATCH OUT NICK (: I seriously made a fool of myself today thanks to you! Hur! Haha! Anywayszx, while waiting for bus at bedok station, guess who i saw! STUPID JOEL SEAH! Hahaha wth, with weekiat. Hah.

Anyway, i'm super proud of myself. I managed to study! Like really study by myself for the first time ever :D Yayyyyyyyyy. Teehee.

Loving you is cherry pie

I woke up for school today with doubts of whether i should go school or not. Later decided not to go school cause of my dad. Sorry Nick, thanks for understanding (: And sorry pooj also, about our maths project thingie (: Anyway, my sinus is working up, annoying. I'm afraid that i'll get H1N1 or have suspected case of H1N1 or get that stupid 7days leave thingie. I'm not really scared of the virus, cause it's curable. But i'm more afraid of not being able to take papers next week. Ohmy, i realzed that i'm more study conscious nowadays, which is good right right :D Ahh, i missed a english graded assignment today ): Dammit! I'm feeling so sleepy -__-

Don't wanna fly when you're still on the ground

HIIIIIIIIII.
I felt feverish last night. But I thought it was nothing cause i felt it before and it was nothing. This morning i took my temperature and it was 38.1 degrees. So yeah. Didn't go to school. I would be happy, but next week is common test so i can't afford to miss lessons, and also being sick is nothing to be happy about. But luckily today is wednesday and so there is only a few lessons, which means i won't miss out on alot. I hope. I felt like a pig! I keep sleeping. Like sleep wake up sleep wake up. Haha. I took my temparature again and it was 38.9. Hmm. My mom came back from work during lunch time. And she brought me to see a doctor, we walked to the docs! Cause the car is with my dad. Pfffffffft. It's not that far but still. I'm suffering from fever, cough, and throat infection. My cough is so annoying! I very scared i cough too hard then my lungs burst or something O: But anyway, i'm feeling better now (: Thank God! Hope that i can go to school tomorrowwwwwww, although i'm given two days MC.

Anywayszx, this are a few pictures from yesterday (:

This city is contagious

HARRRRLOWWWWWW (:

Yesterday was public holiday. Yayy :D Went to suntec to celebrate Ara's and Weekiat's birthday. Me and ara saw see soon, hoon and melody at bedok inter, so we went there with them. And melody keep confessing something. Haha abit the obvious eh. We were kinda late cause they met at 1145. But we only know last minute, on that morning itself. So yeah. We ate at newyork newyork. And the portion is like so big. Look at my food, for 17.50. Worth it! (:

And they gave free cotton candy. Cool right (: After eating and celebrating. We went to watch UP. We were quite late, plus we are such a big group. i think we caused abit of a hindrance. Haha. Missed a little of the first few parts of the show. I think the show is quite nice. I like the old man! He is so adorable :D Teehee. Went to foodcourt later to sit around, drank orange juice :D Love itttttttt. Arnywayszx, today was great i guess (: Bonding! Hah.

Happy birthday happy birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARAAAAAAAAAALIN! :D Love youuuuuuuuuuuuuu (:

New someone.

We were suppose to find poems for some lit project, and i found this nice poem (: Here goes.

New someone

You come out of nowhere,
One day out of the blue.
We hit it off so well,
Neither of us had a clue.

As of right now,
We talk all the time.
From sun up to sun down,
I wait for that chime.

We talk about this,
We talk about that,
We talk about your dog,
And even sometimes your cat.

What we have is a
Good thing so far,
I don’t want to ruin that
By wishing on a star.

Let’s take it slow
And see how it goes.
This may end up
A great thing, who knows?

Don’t get me wrong,
If this turns into a ride,
Let’s sit back and see,
What’s on the other side.

We’ve only hung out
A couple of times,
I don’t want to lie
But it feels like crimes.

No one should feel
This damn good for free,
Where is the catch?
Where is the sting of the bee?

I hope what we have
Does not fade away.
I hope it stays full
And comes back day after day.

-Kenzie Thorp

and once again

And once again, you showed me that you're unreliable. But still, i'm willing to put it aside.


Yesterday we celebrated national day. I went school with Nick and were late. Partially cause we wanted to be even later then we were before. Hee. So had celebration in the hall, watched videos and sang songs :D And stood in one line behind and wanted to jump but the songs like all cannot jump. So we just jumped for a few lines. Hah :D We were dismissed half an hour earlier, at 10 am (: Went to Zann's house with Max, Pooj and Nick. We ordered macs, watch high school musical, chill and played two rounds of block catching/hide and seek :D Went to tampines later go get some stuffs and went home.

the first time in my life

Heyyyyy!
Thursday 6 aug
In the morning before assembly started, maxine, pooj, mitch, pearlyn, nick and me were in the
canteen. We were talking and didn't realize that everyone was standing up for assembly already. So when we realized, we ran there. Along the linkway there were a few tables and my right arm hit one, super hard. Then i was like 'OW' damn loudly. It was really painful. During national anthem i felt nauseas, i told maxine and mebika cause there were in front of me, but i doubt they heard. Then later i felt my eyes closing, and was like omg, am i gonna faint? Then my head dropped to mebika's shoulder and the next thing i knew, i was on the ground. And i woke up and heard maxine saying 'lyvia! are you okay?' Haha. Then a teacher led me to the general office and i rested at the sick bay. They asked me if i wanna go home but i said no cause it's only my hand pain, other then that i felt fine. So i slept but was kinda noisy so like sleep wake up slee wake up. Then they asked me to drink milo and i went back to class :D After school went out for lunch then went home. Took 31 with nick and took pictures, then suddenly she made funny sound which sounded like 'niiiii' or 'niiahhhhhh' HAHA. Wth. High pitch somemore. HAHA. So funnaye (:

I'mmmmmm back!

Hey!
I'm back using blogger (: It's working now and i can post pictures so yeah. Sorry that i keep changing and all.

Pictures for orange day (:

Still got a few, in facebook (: